Ohhh just saw that I've just hit 200 followers on Mastodon. Thank you to everyone who has supported my work, and continues to support and encourage me. 
I'd love to work on building a community on here vs on corporate social media like Instagram, where most my followers are at the moment.
33 years ago, the Monday after Easter, my baby boy had heart surgery. I wrote sometime after, “I was only 21 years old myself and felt my life would most certainly end if he didn’t wake from surgery. I barely knew him, really, but I knew my life relied upon his.”
A pic of him then.
I'm incredibly #grateful that honing my patience & being unwilling to date anyone who didn't meet my basic quality companion standards for years, has finally paid off.
I'd been devalued, dehumanized & traumatized by NT white guy partners (and their super colonial/bigoted family members) in the past & didn't want to make same personal choice errors for companionship in my present life. Especially after recovering from those past relationship traumas, regaining my self worth & promising to myself that I'd never discount myself for anyone, ever again. I promised myself that I'd wait & be open to a new intimate companionship, only if the person met my basic standards, is an open & honest communicator, isn't an ableist, respects who I am fully & completely & understands/supports my lifelong commitment to being an active humanitarian - with deep needs to contribute to community works.
I feel my patience & personal adherence to my core values, has rewarded me with an amazing connection to a fellow creative & big hearted NT mixed Indigenous man, who always tells me how much he appreciates my presence in his life & how he loves all my quirks/oddities. I feel truly valued, just for who I am, quirks n all 
I am glowing with joyful feelings 
Ow my.....
I'm already an emotional wreck. I try to keep thinking positive, to keep focus on the good times that we may still be able to share...
But that little voice in the back of my head keeps telling me that "this may be the last time that...". And I *know* I should not go there... But I'm just so scared of losing her... 
And now, slowly, some support is coming in. 
and every notification brings me to tears... 
partially sad tears because I know the time is running out... Also, partially happy tears , because people care for me and Arwen. People think we're important enough to get this support... However sad the reasons may be...
I can never thank you with my words. I feel they will always be insufficient... If that makes sense...
But we're at €290/€400 now, and it means that I, hopefully, will be able to bring her back home, after her soul has crossed the 
bridge...
As I mentioned in the update on GoFundMe, it would be amazing is we could raise enough to also make a start for the costs for the ash-pendant. But... Getting her the private cremation and urn, and taking her home, those will be most pressing, once she's passed... When I've got the ashes, I can save for the ash-pendant to wear her close to my heart forever....
Thanks ever so much for all your support! 
Arwen and I really appreciate all you do for us... 
I'll try to keep sharing all the Arwen pics I can, both here and on Pixelfed. Because she is worth it... 
For those that want to make me so some more, the link to the GoFundMe is https://www.gofundme.com/f/AlwaysArwen 
One more for today's energy, this track from a great album: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQbxs9FZqRk
My mother marched today, just like she did in 1969. #Grateful for my flower children parents.
#handsoff #handsoff2025
Captured thoughts on March delights in my life, which are there even through all the what's-is exploding around us. https://biketoworkbarb.blogspot.com/2025/03/march-delights.html
#hugs 
#3GoodThings or quite a bit more actually.
Lately things are going quite good for me personally.
1) For my education in animal assisted intervention I'm writing a paper about animal assisted climate communication, combining two of my passions. And I think it will be really good.
2) I want to work in animal assisted education later, but since animal assisted intervention is more of an advanced education I want to get a basic education in education too. My plan is to start both social education and environmental education in the fall. Social education is, I believe, the thing that most people working in animal assisted education have in their curriculum, so it's probably a good thing to have, while environmental education is rather rare, so it might give me an edge for job applications. But mostly I'm just convinced that both will teach me a lot of great skills and knowledge.
3) I've started taking my dog Platon to work (personal assistance for a woman with MS) and since its going well I think I can take him with me every time in the future and that means I can work more (because my mom can't always take Platon) and might finally get out of the monthly red numbers that I'm in for many years now.
4) We're also close to getting the house ready to rent out a few rooms for a little side-money.
That will be another relief financially, but mostly I hope it will mean I have some cool roommates. And maybe some people who can take Platon sometimes.
5) I came out of a depression more than a year ago and kept still taking one of the meds, as its supposed to help the brain get used to how the internal chemistry should be. But it really messed with my memory. Now that spring is coming I'm reducing and eventually getting rid of the medication and I can already tell that my memory is getting a bit better again.
6) I randomly met a friend from school the other day and we started going on walks together regularly and have great talks. That's a kind of friendship I've been missing for a long time.
7) I'm quite proud of what we accomplished at the 
lately. We finished 2024 almost in the black figures, finally created an account (https://fedi.at/@FediverseFoundation), are regularly posting on our blog (https://fediverse.foundation/en/blog/) and will launch a Pixelfed server tomorrow (https://instapix.org). I'm excited!
8-99) (My memory still isn't great, so I probably forgot a few things)
A lovely day in the #mountains 
#crosscountry #peaceful #harmony #nature . This is my #shelter in the #forrest . I am so #grateful and a #happy day to all 
#BakkliAtNerskogen #Norway
"Ubuntu may be straying a bit from the world of pure OSS, but without it, I wouldn't be who I am today. I started my journey with Ubuntu 6.06 and I'll always be thankful for it. Mad respect for what it gave me. 
#Ubuntu #Grateful #Respect"
https://old-releases.ubuntu.com/ubuntu/pool/main/u/ubuntu-sounds/
hey everyone. how are you doing? Currently in hong kong... wanted to share with you an arrangement my friend Charlie arranged with me... this song is from a video game, Mario Kart DS. I'm playing the Hammon organ. The band is The 8 Bit Big Band. feel free to share. More music with these guys coming soon. https://youtu.be/GtM43j8yjT8?si=5cEznvS9o3P3laWL #videogames #music #jazz #gaming #organ #blessed #grateful #blind #accessibility
@Gargron The world must be grateful to your parents. At least I am. #grateful #historicmove
There are certain stretches of #winter when I do not take my #furnace for granted. It clicks on, and I am thankful for the sound that indicates that it will keep the temperature constant within a degree or so.
It is one lonely degree outside with a windchill of around -18° F.
Yes, the furnace runs a lot, so I’ll have a high natural gas bill, but I am so #grateful for the warmth.
#gratitude #heat 
Pixy's Journey 
ELBOWS UP & GLOVES OFF! 
