The #grief that emerges in the aftermath of a #narcissisticRelationship falls under the umbrella of "disenfranchised grief". That is grief which isn't socially acknowledged as reasonable.
The sad reality is that navigating the grief of losing a relationship with a #narcissistic partner is really fucking difficult.
You're grieving a person that never existed. They were a facade produced by a psychological predator to devour you whole. This means you're grieving a person that is still alive while simultaneously never having existed. This is exacerbated when you are unable to go no contact and have to regularly face your abuser.
If you're wrestling with this: you have all my empathy. What helps me is understanding that I'm not really grieving the loss of the relationship but I'm grieving the loss of possibility and hope. I thought I found someone who shared my visions for a good life. I did not. I'm grieving the loss of that. Not the loss of my abuser.